I am so proud of myself. Yesterday, I finished the curtains, I moved some stuff from my locker to the new place, and I did some packing. Very productive day for me. Today, I have made a plan to get some help to move essential stuff from the locker (that won't fit in my car) into the new place. I wish I could start staying there now, but there are a few things the landlord was to fix, and when I went there yesterday they were not done. All the baseboard heaters are destroyed, and the stairs outside are very treacherous. The other stuff is all minor and can be done after I move in. I was a little distraught when I saw that none of it was done, I don't want a lazy landlord.

Before I Start Over

I am making a fresh start in life. I am moving out on my own again, and setting goals and making plans. I am so excited about my fresh start that I am having trouble finishing up the stuff that I already have on the go.

So before I get going on said New Life, I need to do a little housecleaning. As is known to everyone who actually reads my blog (not many) I have been with Jack for almost a year now. I am moving out. Things have been so rocky for so long, I don't have the energy for it any longer. I have completely lost myself in this relationship, all the stuff I used to do, quilting, friends, family, my business, and my freethinking have all vanished from my life. I want my life back!

I have been seeing a councilor through a program at work, to help me deal with stress and self-esteem. Likely the best decision I had made in a long time. Well, she has made me realize that I really do have worth and that this crazy stuff I do by collecting and visualizing is actually called art. I am an Artist. I have been so inspired, I have been taking my camera everywhere with me and taking random photos of all kinds of stuff. Trees, flowers, powerlines, puddles, buildings, etc. So what I want in life is to have my own studio, and finally get some of this inspiration actualized, like in the real world.

I made the decision to move into my own place early this month, and started looking for a place to rent. I have probably looked at 30 places altogether, the one I fell in love with was the first one I looked at. It has great light and a nice floor plan and is ground level so no stairs into a dungeon. But alas I was too slow, I wanted to look around and someone else snapped it up. But I believe that my Kharmic balance this time round is that I got to meet so many great people on this house hunt. In the past when I go hunting all the people I talk to are quiet or self focused or just kinda rude, but this time everyone was so appealing, I wanted to be friends with almost all of them.

So I found a place. It is further out the valley than I wanted, but I really like the light. There are only a couple of stairs down into the dungeon not like my old place. The place is not in great of shape, but I will put my mark on it anyway. It is a two bedroom basement suite, with a full bathroom, and full kitchen (the stove is apartment size, and I am okay with that). There are some little things that I noticed when I went to pick up the keys, but they are all minor. A cupboard door that doesn't meet in the middle, there is a nick in the back of the door, the shower doors have some mildew, all minor things that I can fix or clean. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, my own parking spot. And I can see the car from my living room. I really am so excited.

So I have a list of things to do before I leave Jacks place. I have already done the washroom closet (the handle fell off). The last big project I have is the curtains. The string on the blinds let go, so the landlord brought over some curtains from Ikea. All I have to do is press them and hem them ready to put up, I have one finished, so I am half way there.

I have so much stuff to do, moving day is in 2 days. I have these 2 days off. If I do this all day, I won't get the important stuff done on time.

I have so much more to say. I miss my blogging, and can't hardly wait to be able to do it again.

Bye for now, I promise to write soon.