lost in translation

In my skull shawl, worms, sneakers, poles and triple chairs are used. No weirdness. Are you ready?

So, this sentence was actually given to me by Google translate when I clicked English on a crochet pattern. 

Wow! No weirdness at all. 

But really the pattern is awesome and I am so glad that I can translate the Swedish and read the English, and there is pictures. So I might be able to produce the shawl myself. 

Possibly pictures to follow... 

Walking and Talking

I've started walking with a friend. Tuesdays right after work, I rush home and change out of my steel toes and into sneakers and meet her at the park down the road. We have been going for a month now, I really want to say I feel like I'm making progress. It feels good to get out of the house. I know it's good for me, even if I feel like its not worth it.

So on our walk, we talk. Sometimes it's pretty dark, sometimes it's really fluffy. But, always it's about connection. This is how friendships are built. Who knew!

So, I just got home from our walk. I'm feeling motivated to actually think about the food I might have for dinner. I think I'm gonna go shopping for some veggies...

Musing...

I have a friend who writes. Yes, I have a friend. We had a wonderful visit last weekend, dinner and a few drinks (back yards are awesome!). And we got talking about writing. I told her that I'm not really a writer, I just have this silly blog that I never post on. But, she inspires me. I feel stronger and smarter when I'm with her, like I really do have something to offer the world. So here I am writing.

I am starting to see that my life will always be chaos. I never seem to get a break. There is, always stuff to do, and stuff to avoid doing. There's work to do, at home and at work. I never seem to get ahead of any of it. Maybe this is just the way of the world and my seeing it is proof that I am starting to grow up...

Lately, I have been itching to stitch. I tried embroidery a few weeks ago, that didn't cut it. I am currently trying chrochet. My travel cup, coffee, doesn't keep my coffee hot at all. I was given a cozy, and every sip ends up fuzzy. So, I decide to build my own custom cozy. Several attempts later and I think I might have something that will work for me. Just for me.

This writing thing is tough for me. I don't think I make sense and can't seem to carry a train of thought. But I like seeing my words on an actual blog, for the world to see if they are looking in my direction.

how's that for honesty

Too much happening! Way too much.

It has been a long time, and I (as usual) dropped the ball on blogging. I have tried several times to set up a blog that I actually want to post on. I think I might try again.

Content is hard to find for me. When I find stuff I usually don't have time to post or don't have access. I know that is a silly excuse in this age of smart phones and instant access to everything.

I guess I'm really old school. In order to keep costs down I don't have a smart phone, although I am seeing the need to upgrade. My laptop is old and clunky and I don't like to carry it around with me too much, again see the need to upgrade...

So here is the real reason for my post:

The past six years have been an emotional roller-coaster for me. There have been ups and downs, and lotsa slips sideways. Things have been rough for me socially, financially, emotionally, well pretty much every aspect of my life. I have settled down into a career path that I am really enjoying, and I've been working on my self. It has been a really long road and I'm just now starting to get some energy back. I am waking up in the morning just before my alarm and thinking "okay time to get up" instead of "I could get xx more time to sleep". Its a really big deal for me! I am also thinking about what I am eating and what I might like to do to get more active.

So, needless to say, I am feeling like the dark days might be coming to an end. So looking forward to what the universe has in store for me.